Though I know I am leaving and things have been working toward that for a time, this week it hit in a new way...a more real way. I am not exactly sure, but it might have had to do with the fact that last weekend I realized I had less than month until I leave for Hong Kong and am basically finished with my life in Korea. Then there have just been moments this week where I have just enjoyed my students. I love them always and most things I do are motivated by the love I have for them--but there are times that I enjoy and appreciate them more than others. This week was just one of those weeks were I looked at my kids and could see how much they have grown. It just makes me proud and it makes me want to continue to be a part of their lives.
I have been tired all week and do not know why. Today is Saturday and I had nothing to do until this evening. I woke up multiple times and attempted to start my day reading a book. I never lasted more than fifteen minutes before I had fallen into a deep sleep again. I did this all morning until about 1 pm. At that point I was finally rested. It may have nothing to do with leaving, but I have gone to bed at a decent time all night this week and nothing out of the ordinary is going on. I think it is just an emotional weariness from realizing how little time I have left here. While I know it is time to move on, I have loved my time here in Korea. I am not in a hurry to leave. I am not leaving to "escape". I am simply leaving because God has said it is time to pursue some of the other things He has placed on my heart.
It's weird, but I only have one to two more nights at the Hospitality House--the body of believers I have been a part of here. This body has been my family. I have grown and much as I have been a part of this body of believers. This past year has had it ups and downs, and there was a time where I stopped wanting to be there. It used to be that you couldn't keep me away. There was no question on IF I would show up a Friday or Saturday night. I was there. I wanted to be there. I was encouraged and challenged and blessed by the people there. This year it has been more forced. I have gone because I was committed to the body there and no other reason. I would dread going. Anyhow, I persevered and think I have learned the lessons the Lord had for me through that time. The Hospitality House is once again a place a I want to be. I look forward to going and being blessed. Sadly though, this is the time of the year where I sort of "disappear" from the House. We have so many school events that take place on Friday or Saturday nights that while I go whenever I can--I am just gone a lot. In the past when this time of the year had rolled around, it was not a big deal and I would know that soon I would be back to being very involved. This year, there is not that hope. Right about the time I get "free" I am getting on a plane and returning to the USA. I am still taking advantage of every opportunity I can--there are just so few left. I know it will be weird when I walk away from the House for the final time.
Anyhow, those are a few of my thoughts. I have some pictures that perhaps blogger will allow me to post. I have some time tomorrow and might post if I have time. Who know!
Until next time...
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Saying good by is always hard and leaves an empty hole in our hearts. But the memories and friends you have made can never be taken away from you.
Even though this chapter of your life is about to end the next chapter will hold new and exciting stories, friends and memories for you.
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