Bad Ass for Him

I will not even attempt to catch you up on the happenings of Amber since it has been so long since I have blogged. I will just start with sharing what the Lord is currently doing.

I am living in Bulverde, Texas with my parents. I moved back to Texas in August of last year (2011) to help the parentals and to be near family. All 5 Divers now reside in Texas! But this is a bunny trail...

One of the major themes in my life over the last few years has been the Lord's faithfulness. He is constantly showing Himself faithful through all things. In addition to this, the Lord has really been after me to ask Him for the desires of my heart with the faith that He actually wants to give them to me.

I must admit, I really had to do some soul searching to even identify what these were. I had to bring lots of desires before Him and let Him help me narrow it down and figure it out what it was I really desired.

Two of my heart's desires are (there a a few more):

#1--As much as I would love to be married, more than that, I just want to be a part of a functioning family--my own or a "put-together" one.

#2--My time being single is a gift. If I am going to be single, I want to be a BAD ASS single for Him. (Is there a better way to convey what I am talking about? It's how my sister talks about it and since she said it, I admit I struggle to figure another way to word it). I have been asking the Lord to show mw where to invest the time and energy I have due to my singleness.

So I have been asking the Lord to give me a "home" to run and an outlet to use singleness for Him.

All this to say, I have really been pressing into Him and asking for my heart's desires with faith (and sometimes without). It has been fun to Him work. In a little over a month, He has relieved me of a job I didn't love, prospered my tutoring business, and I see Him at work in me in positive ways. I tend to be of the mentality--"Bring on the hard stuff Lord so that I can grow". Right now, it is hard to have the faith that He wants to give me my heart's desires, but He is growing me through these godo things.  It is hard to describe, but there is a joy in watching Him work.

So I continue to press into Him in faith and to do my best to live bad ass, all out, for Him in this season He has me in and in the new season He is taking me into.

The Lord often speaks to me through songs. My current song is Come Away by Jesus Culture. It goes something like this...

I have a plan for you.

I have a plan for you.

It's going to be wild.

It's going to be grand.

It's going to be full of Him.

Open up your heart and let Me in.

How true this is! The Lord has a good plans for me. It's wild. It's grand. And it's full of Him.

Do you believe He has a GOOD plan for you? Do you want it? Are you willing to open your heart to Him and allow Him in.

The rest of the lyrics to the song are:

Come away with Me. Come away with Me.

It's never too late.

It's not too late.

It's not too late for you.

The Lord is waiting for you. Always. His plans for you are good. Always.